the act

its all a big act if you think about it, the smile, and the laughs, its not real i mean of course its not real. you could never really be happy when everything that made you happy has slowly vanished into nothing but hate and anger. and who really wants to live like that anyway? probably no one so why do it, why not just give up on the world, it seems like it gave up on you a long time ago. what do you have going for you right now? jack shit, and yes it may get better but how long will it take to get better, do you really want to be feeling like this for weeks, months even? i don't think so, why not just end it now? why not just end it all? they'll be consequences but everything has some sort of consequence so it doesn't really matter. it may just be time to give up.