i want

i want to be happy
i want everyone to stop being so fake
i want to be older
i want something new
i want to stop being so bored
i want to stop caring about you
i want to go back in time
i want to things to change
i want to be normal
i want it to snow all the time so i never have to go to school
i want you to stop thinking the world revolves around you
i want to be friends
i want to stop moaning
i want you.


i want doesn't get

the same routine

i definitely need something or someone new in my life, i am so sick of doing the same thing day in day out. i need someone to wake me up and make things exciting again.
i find it hard pulling myself out of bed in the morning because i have nothing to look forward to and i know its going to be another 'fun filled' day
i want to start something new, maybe learn an instrument? it will keep me occupied for a bit i guess, although i can't see me being all that talented with any sort of instrument

someone said to me today 'everything happens for a reason' i'm starting to realise that is actually true. you may not like what has happened but in the end its only going to make things better so suck it up

change

so i'm turning a new leaf, starting over, changing, call it whatever you like thats exactly what i'm doing.
recently all i seem to do is push people further and further away from me, for no reason what so ever. i get angry and then i end up saying stuff i don't mean and it ends in tears and fights. even when people haven't done anything to me i still find a way to be pissed off at them its rediculous
therefore i have decided to make amends with all the people i have got into arguments with, i want my friends back, my real friends. i need them back.
i'm sick of all the pathetic arguments, the bitching, the awkwardness.

i cannot wait for the future :}

HAPPPPPPPPPPPPY TIMESSSS FROM NOW ON