hate

this will be the last one for tonight i promise. i just like doing this it gets things off my chest even if noone does read it, and even if noone cares, and even if some people decide to call me 'attention seeking' or 'pathetic' i don't really mind because this helps, and if you don't like it stop reading?

i hate being 'the friend' i hate the fact i'm never going to be more than 'the friend', i hate the fact you come to me with your relationship problems, i hate feeling like you're slowly slipping away from me, and i hate how god damn happy you make me.

i hate how i can't stick up for myself, i hate how i get treated like shit all the time, i hate how noone ever notices my 'progress' and i hate how fake so many people are

i hate how i can't talk to you anymore, i hate how we're never going to be friends, i hate how you hate me even if you say you don't, and i hate how much i want thing to change

i hate how i fail at everything i do, i hate how my family are so dysfunctional, and i hate how helpless i feel.

i hate how i never know what to say anymore, i hate how you sign off msn without saying bye its really fucking rude, and i hate it how you just make no effort what so ever

BUT MOST OF ALL I HATE HOW I CANNOT STOP BLOGGING!